The Change in Me

I’m not sure exactly when it happened – but I changed. I changed for the better.

I’ve worked so hard the past two months to think positive thoughts instead of the negativity that often filled my mind.

I’ve gone to doctor’s appointments. I’ve practiced self-care. I’ve focused on my family. I’ve even taken a vacation with my husband to an amazingly beautiful island, which allowed us to relax and roboot after a couple hard years. It allowed us time to look each other in the eye and say, yes, I love you. Oh man, do I ever love you.

I’m important to so many people. I’m loved by so many people. And they want me to get well. They want me to love myself as much as they love me. And I’m trying. God, I’m trying.

I have so much to be thankful for but sometimes it’s hard to see that when you’re in the middle of a storm. But I can feel the storm calming. I can see the clouds clearing.

There were so many times this blog served as a diary. A place to lay it all out there. But the over-sharing? The negative stories? The pain and the hurt? That needs to end because I’m a different person than that.

When I look in the mirror, instead of seeing the ugly parts of me – I now see He made beauty from the ashes.

And I want to leave the ashes behind for good. I mean it. I really do. I’m tired of drudging it all up. I’m exhausted from reliving it. It all stops here today.

I have thought long and hard about this. I now feel certain that I need to have this blog be a positive place. A place where good things are shared. Things I love about myself and my family and my life.

I love writing. I love photography. I love food and fashion and decorating. I love traveling. I love spending time with family and friends. I love happy endings.

At first, I didn’t know how I would make a change on this blog. Would there be a new focus? A new name? I couldn’t think of what would accurately convey the change in me. But it came to me unexpectedly one day.

My name is Molly Rebecca but sometimes my mom affectionately calls me Molly Becky. She has done that for as long as I can remember and it’s always made me feel happy and warm inside. I knew it was the right fit.

So, after five years, I’m saying goodbye to A Day in Mollywood. I’m ready for the change to Molly Becky. Soon my blog will migrate to mollybecky.com and all of my social media channels will change too.

I’m so excited about where my positive attitude will take me. I hope you’ll stick around as I make this change. I hope you’ll be able to sense a more positive, fun, Molly. Because that’s who I want to be. When I wake up in the morning I want to praise Him for another glorious day on this earth.

I want this life to be positive and fun. It will never be perfect, of course. But my home is full. My heart is full.

And that’s what I want you to see here.